For me there are two kinds of people in the world, those who like, seek attention and those who are content to let those people get all the attention. I guess in a way we are all, at times, a mix of both, but for the most part people seem to either be in one group or the other. Despite my blog here, I tend to put myself in the allow others to get the attention group. I know that I write my blog here and post to get people to notice, appreciate and be inspired by what I write, but it’s not sensational or just speaking for speakings sake, which there are those people that do that. I can’t say that one is better than the other one, but those people that just speak for speakings sake.
Part of me feel fascinated by those people that are more “selfish” or showboatie than others. These people that stand up and say here I am, come love me, hate me or whatever, but I am here and there is nothing that you can do about it. Those people tend to be a little exhausting to say the least, but they are spirited and show conviction.
I am the kind that likes to sit in the shadows and dream of taking center stage, but never really have the courage to go out and take it like these people do. Maybe it’s fear that keeps me on the side lines, but at times it is also respect. I believe that things have a time and a place and not everything is suited for every situation.
There are some people who take to social media to cry their woes for the world or share their anger or disdain. Maybe I am just hypocritical, because some people would say this is “airing my dirty laundry”, but I am a faceless, nameless person in the crowd. I don’t post pictures of who I am and post constantly to just “get noticed”. I write from my heart and write in all honesty to bring beauty and inspiration to the world, mostly through creative means.
I guess for me, there is a difference than just speaking to hear your own voice and speaking with a purpose. Sometimes people just speak out of selfish desires, to have people notice them or to become some over night sensation and all too often I think that is why they fail. I don’t think that being famous is all that the movies make it out to be, but to have my words matter to one person, two even, that is my desire. I want to write words that will be remembered or that will make an impact, not just to scream “look at me, look at me”.
I think that we need to stop and think from time to time why we are doing what we do and what drives us. Are we acting out of selfish motivations or for the greater good of some kind? Do we open our mouths with something to say or are we just polluting the world with more hollow words? Do we seek attention just for the sake of having it or are we seeking it for a greater reason or do we sit back and speak our mind, not really wanting to speak, but knowing that and feeling that we have something we can’t keep inside? Life is too short to always be a wallflower, but when we do step out into the sun, we just better remember to speak words that matter and count.